You are probably wondering why I have not posted since April 25th? Well, my life has changed since then. I sit here, with a cup of tea, my kids are in bed and my husband is in the kitchen unloading the dishwasher. Yes! You heard me, my husband was unloading the dishwasher! This was a random act of kindness from him because he knows that my heart is broken. My heart is broken because I lost Mer! Mer was an amazing friend who touched every person in a unique way. She gave to others and did not care if she got anything in return. She loved life and she made me love life that much more. I am going to miss our talks. I am going to miss the fact that she is not going to be physically by my side as we grow old. There was so much more we needed to share with each other.
I did not tell Mer or Susie that I was entering this contest. I had been following the Phat Chicks for awhile and always told Mer how proud I was of her and Susie. Once I found out that I was chosen for this amazing adventure, I started to cry. I then looked at her and Susie and they just looked at me with their beautiful smiles and laughed with me. Ya, that is right! They laughed...HA!! I started to cry because they knew how much I wanted to succeed at being a great role model for my kids. They knew that they had helped me change my overall health and well-being FOREVER!
Mer knew that one day I wanted to run a marathon and have my kids see how much persistence and determination kicks ass to succeed with your goals in life. The day I found out that Mer had passed away, I ran. I ran until I was so out of breath I thought I would stop. Guess what, I didn't. I kept going and that is what I am going to do. Mer would have wanted this. She would have wanted each and every one of us to reach inside and find that inner strength to succeed. As a little girl, I always wanted to be the best athlete. I wanted to have a man to love, an education to fall back on, children, a family and the most important awesome friendships. Well, I got it all and I got Mer. Even though I have lost a dear friend, I will indeed keep her strength and determination known. I will let my little girls know of her and tell them what an amazing friend she was to everyone who were lucky to have know her. I will hold her in my heart forever!
I miss her, I miss her so much!!!
